The good kind of selfish

"The Lord Calls Women to His Service"
I have long felt that doing work for God is a burden and takes time for "fun" things away from me, even the small things like singing for church or greeting on sabbath. This morning I ran across this sentence in "Daughters of God".
"If the whole heart were consecrated to God, all would find something to do, and would covet a part in the work."
I now know why it has been so hard for me. I need to be wholly consecrated to God. But how? Is it even possible for a mother to be that? I think it is. With prayer it is possible. I believe God will sustain me if I ask Him to. If I feel like I don't have time to spend with Him because I need to take my nap since I am so tired, I must ask God to give me the energy and then spend the time listening and talking to Him! I believe He will answer my prayer for energy.
Now about working for God taking away time from my exciting life.
"Those who are colaborers with God will have no disposition to engage in the various expedients for amusement; they will not be seeking after happiness and enjoyment."
Will not seek after happiness? But I thought it was ok to be happy...
"In taking up their work in the fear of God, and doing service to the master, they will secure the most substantial happiness."
There it is, happiness in doing God work. The paragraph goes on to say...
"Connected with Jesus Christ, they will be wise into salvation. They will be fruit-bearing trees. They will develop a blameless character. The great work of redemption will be their first consideration. Eating and drinking and dressing, houses and lands, will be secondary matters. The peace of Hod within will force off the withered or gnarled branches of selfishness, vanity, pride, and indolence."
I really want this for myself. This sounds so peaceful. It may be selfish of me to want it, but I believe this is the good kind of selfish, the kind that betters YOU so you can help others. Today, I want to be selfish and reach for Gods peace in me!